Marc's Reflection on Aikido & True Play

Entries from February 2011

Changing the incline

February 27th, 2011 · No Comments

Requires attention
Is pretty easy

Changing intention (arising from from a “hidden” incline) is more difficult

Changing behavior (muscles & bones, feelings, thoughts) is even more difficult

All are levers, doors, openings for learning and change.

The incline is the farthest up stream,
with the least attachment and momentum to deal with

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Checking the incline

February 27th, 2011 · No Comments

I can “feel” the incline
My momentary inclination
Toward
Away or against

This critical information is easily available to me.
It is the root, the well spring
Of what is going to happen

A little attention to my incline
Changes everything

A true nonlinear effect
Real leverage in my journey back to
True play

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Aikido

February 26th, 2011 · No Comments

Extension

Vertical

Big

Clear

With

———

From simplicity and safety

Toward connection

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Play

February 26th, 2011 · No Comments

Only occurs when vertical

Moving with
Self &
Others

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Caring

February 26th, 2011 · No Comments

Exists only when inclined toward
Self
Others

Human interest only exists when inclined toward
Self
Others

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Violence

February 26th, 2011 · No Comments

Develop a bias against violence
Lean away from self violence
Lean toward presence and connection
With self and others

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Incline

February 26th, 2011 · No Comments

My precise state of
Slope
Tilt
Leaning
Bias.
The pre-intention
From which the intention originates
Which leads through intention to the action of
Turning
Toward
Away or Against

Inclination to protect self or to connect with self and others
Isolation or I-I

Turn toward the inclination
Observe that

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Falling

February 26th, 2011 · No Comments

Is only staying connected, touching
Throughout the entire waza
There is no plan to fall
No “correct” technique
Technique is not aikido, is not present
Aikido is present practice of connecting and blending

Aikido is extending and balance
Throughout

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Over reaction

February 25th, 2011 · No Comments

Over reaction.
Fearing X I exhibit -X.

There is another way:
Present with what is happening
Including fearing X
And simply being present with what is unfolding
Not defending
Not correcting nor over correcting in order
To be in the RIGHT place.
All of this unnecessary effort puts one off balance
Out of touch

The practice is:
Accepting connection
as a practice of neutral observation.

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Metabolizing Stress

February 20th, 2011 · No Comments

One week of a two week vacation.

Sleep.

Daily breathing practice.

Relieves Horizontal reacting. (Reliving my past, projecting past onto an uncertain future.)

Supports Vertical. (Present in this place, in this body, with these specific people, now.)

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Humiliation

February 20th, 2011 · No Comments

Shame

Blinding shame

Fight or flight

Or…

Stay with it, turn toward it, let it dissolve itself through insight

Ever how slowly and non-violently

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Presence for Solutions

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

“Problem solving”

Effort
or
Acceptance, Openness, Curiosity, Playfulness

Violence against
or
Conversations with

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Extend and Connect, from the ground, up and out

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

That is True Play

Based on a Vertical orientation

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Commit my Allegiance to the PRACTICE of Fearless Play

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Replace the HORIZONTAL
–time and energy devoted looking toward fear, self protection-destruction

with

Intention and attention to VERTICAL
–gravity, balance, breathing, and supple spine

I am literally being consumed by my ATTENTION to the Horizontal.
I NOW COMMIT to changing my allegiance (what I actually do with my time) from my history and fears to the simple PRACTICE of Vertical.

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Selfish disrespect

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Turning away

Turning against

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Just

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Feel the ground

Balance

Breath

Supple spine

Nothing else is necessary

The rest will take care of itself without effort or violence

Thoughts will flow

Resolutions and dissolution will occur

That’s what happens

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3D and Timeless

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

The Horizontal relationship to fear is
2D,
time constrained (worried about the future, based on accumulated fears from the past) and
of limited choice

The Vertical relationship to True Play is
3D,
timeless (in the present moment–the only time that exists) and
choice full

(Marc, you can turn your hips, bend your knees, fall, roll–really. Practice)

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Gratitidue and Respect or Selfish Disrespect

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

That’s the choice!

Allegiance to

–the present or the past?

Allegiance to

–Touching / Connection or Withdrawal / Violence?

Allegiance to

–Practice or Pain

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Observe my intention’s turning

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Which way is intention turning (before the body turns)

Away from self

Against self

Toward self

—–

Away from other

Against other

Toward other

—-

Away from, Against, or Toward

–Gravity

–Balance (in 3 dimensions),

–Breath (in the belly),

–Supple spine (openness)

–Extension (line, true strength, precision, the precursor of connection),

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Pain or Flow

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Withdrawal, Pushing Against

or

Extension, touching, blending

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Touching

February 13th, 2011 · No Comments

From center

Breathing

Extend

On a Precise Line

Toward

(not Against nor Away, not self Protecting-Defeating) (compression-center-breath)

Connect, Blend, Flow

With

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Imposed rules, by who’s authority

February 13th, 2011 · No Comments

Self imposed:

Trying to perform

For whom?

Noticing the awkwardness

Turn toward it. Feel the rules and violence behind stiffness and imbalance

Pain points to old rules, old quarrels

Accepting the old antagonists

Letting the body relax, letting the rule relax

Participate

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From reaction to response

February 13th, 2011 · No Comments

History: Startle, withdraw, plan, … From anxiety with intellect.

Practice: Notice, accept, sense and respond center to center, I – I, with playfulness.

Even noticing the startle chain reaction, playfully.

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No negatives :)

February 13th, 2011 · No Comments

Turning toward,

Is the only creative way,

Forward

Expand self

To include,

Let, allow.

Say “yes”.

To Awareness

To Flow

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Nurturing?

February 13th, 2011 · No Comments

Is not violence to self

Is not turning my back on, is not pushing away

Is not performing to an autocrat’s memory

Is of gratitude and respect

Touching

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Move from center

February 12th, 2011 · No Comments

For the first time

(while blindfolded)

I was able to feel myself move from center

And have my feet support that movement

Nice!

Now I know what it feels like!

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Where are you turning, your self, as your body turns

February 12th, 2011 · No Comments

Connecting with another

from hara, as best I can

while

Connecting with embodied confusion.

Turning from hara toward the felt embodied confusion

Turning from hara toward ground

Turning from confusion toward hara

Not turning away from nor against…

Embracing the whole

Staying with it

Noticing

Not hurrying, scurrying, running, trying…

Dropping all effort for simple curiosity

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Blinded by sight

February 12th, 2011 · No Comments

Embodied learning prevented by my sighted brain.

Blindfolded

Like a race horse in a fire

Able to practice with bokken

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Forgiveness

February 8th, 2011 · No Comments

Facing, being with, connecting

Accepting the whole swirling with gratitude

Not punishing (aggression)

Not holding away (withdrawing, as passive aggression)

Allowing the space and time for metamorphosis

In the victim

As well as in the perpetrator,

Who, of course, was someone else’s victim.

End the cycle.

End the progression.

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I felt compression while walking this morning!

February 8th, 2011 · No Comments

No complaint

Pure gratitude

It just happened

How pleasant.

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I-I of Acceptance

February 8th, 2011 · No Comments

The reality of the I-I.

Acceptance of others

Acceptance of self

Inextricably tied.

Actually

Just faces of the same way of being.

Alienation is simply alienation.

In the end, I cannot really treat others and self differently.

So accept and connect,

Period

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Sword (Bokken) Practice

February 5th, 2011 · No Comments

If you don’t know precisely what you are doing

Others cannot possibly blend with you

Clarity is necessary

for connection

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Staying Connected

February 5th, 2011 · No Comments

Ground–Compression

Center–Breathing Sensing

Balance–Supple Spine

Extension–Connecting Touching

Reconnect through: ground, center, balance, extension

Without turning away or turning against.

Moving out of harms way

AND

Staying connected.

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Always three choices, three ways

February 5th, 2011 · No Comments

Turning

Away?

Against?

Toward?

In each moment, with each person

Which is it?

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Touch

February 3rd, 2011 · No Comments

Extension

&

Connection

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