Marc's Reflection on Aikido & True Play


November 13th, 2011 · No Comments

–Losing self and time in helping the other

without risking self-harm

with safety for both.

Getting emotionally close has always felt very unsafe.

I only recently learned of Aikido, peace and harmony way, a way of  connecting with anyone without risk of harm for either.

One must be trustworthy in order for others to be trusting and in their turn trustworthy.

Aikido requires some serious emotional maturity.

Maybe there are some practices that can be discovered.


Flow less ness

November 13th, 2011 · No Comments



November 13th, 2011 · No Comments

What does it feel like when I am unable to find or move from center?

Can I turn toward that?

Is this the ghost who says, don’t dance, don’t trust your feet, don’t trust…

Is this the ghost who says, think first, calculate, protect yourself, don’t look silly, know the answer…

This ghost feels like me. Getting this genie back into the bottle seems daunting…

I can take intellectual and physical risks but not emotional risks!

I simply don’t trust…

I construct my life to require the least trust…


That is I-It.

Is there safety in I-It?

Is that style of safety worth the price?

What is the price?

At the minimum, awkwardness and distance.

Loss of joy, playfulness, spontaneity, touch…

Loss of connection with my daughters.

Loss of effectiveness in community creativity.