Marc's Reflection on Aikido & True Play

Entries from December 2011

Dialogue as Ai Ki

December 31st, 2011 · No Comments

Being connected, touching, blending

In the present moment

Displaces assumptions and inferences with

Direct experience and movement

Displaces the violence and illusion of control with

Vulnerability and openness.

Conversations which emerge in this way (dialogue)

Co-invent shared insights


Why work against your body!

December 31st, 2011 · No Comments

Our mind

and others minds

Receive their direction from our body

Our breathing

Our posture

Our way of moving

Our way of holding against or away

Our gracefulness

It is all out there for everyone (including us) to see

We cannot force our bodies to be graceful

We can only turn toward what is happening

Accept it

And move with it

From center

With breath of the center

With intention of the center

With motion of the center


Smart Body

December 31st, 2011 · No Comments

Listen, without words, to the body

Turn, without words, toward the body

The muscles

The breath

The initiation (inclination) of movement

The felt experience of place, of other, of self, of movement


Big or Small; Big and Small

December 31st, 2011 · No Comments

This is an ever present question

How to take care of one’s self so that being big is the enticing choice?

Pay attention to this inclination.

Don’t force your way toward extension.

Turn toward, take care, rest into the inclination to get small and withdraw.


Care and Respect

December 31st, 2011 · No Comments

Anything good comes from the combination of
Moving from our deepest care
With complete respect
for yourself and for others.

Respect is: no pushing, no withdrawing, simply touching and moving together.
Care: what is the most enticing, most life giving, results in the most joy and meaning.


Committment to practicing

December 21st, 2011 · No Comments

In each present moment
To staying with and moving from my centered care
To not being directed by old and familiar yet violent and unhelpful voices

Feel my care and others care from center(s)
Feel the presence moment from center
Initiate movement (always turning from center toward) from my center, and stay with it (again and again)
Breath from my center
Rest and turn toward from my center
Ascend the stairs, open a door, enter a room, ride my bike from earth to center to others. Every moment is a practice of moving centered connecting. Play with it. Rest into it. The way (Thou-Thou, sameness harmonious) should reduce stress not increase it (I-It, sameness discordant).



December 14th, 2011 · No Comments

Is muscular striving for
Some perfect, preconceived outcome
Falling awkwardly toward the earth
But not toward deep care or shared care



December 14th, 2011 · No Comments

Is awareness
Able to turn and fall gracefully, restfully toward
Anything of interest

Including all the puppeteers


Awareness and the Puppeteers

December 13th, 2011 · No Comments

Ask awareness to turn and look behind

Get acquainted with the puppeteers

The feel of his hand
The intention of his soul
His childhood and adolescence
His concerns and fears


Muscles against bones

December 11th, 2011 · No Comments


Getting a feeling for the whole set of muscles, taken together,

Felt and worn like coat

Over my bones

Fighting gravity

Working unnecessarily against my supporting bones

Able to relax at once

A stress coat, taken off and put aside.

Relaxed over supporting bones.



Center of gravity and Care

December 11th, 2011 · No Comments

When one finds a way to associate or locate

ones deepest care

with ones physical center of gravity

with the place we breath from and move from

then things begin to shift.

Connection becomes possible

Poise shows up.

With allies and adversaries, when moving with anyone’s care,

we are best when moving from our center and their center.



December 10th, 2011 · No Comments

simply falling toward the earth



December 6th, 2011 · No Comments

Is in the present moment

Connected through one’s deepest care.


Tension in every muscle

December 6th, 2011 · No Comments

I spent last week with total muscular tension and no smiles.

Embodied awareness that

What I wanted most and what I feared the most were precisely the same thing.

Yesterday I had an embodied breakthrough.

My body knows the way forward.

Thank you Sensei Bert Bennett!



December 6th, 2011 · No Comments

Believe it or not,

It was the symmetry of connection that I did not know.

(I hate to say it, but in some very strange and illogical way, I was trying to connect alone.)

How interesting.


The simple fun of connection

December 6th, 2011 · No Comments

When there is symmetric interest in

Connecting (what would connecting be if it were not symmetric–pushing or withdrawing!)

Center simply falling toward the earth

And everything else moving and staying in connection

No technique, no thinking, no effort, no fear, no problem

Just purposeful attentive connecting without specific goals




December 6th, 2011 · No Comments

The very easiest way to be and to move.

Moving from one’s central care.

Connected to ground to center to other’s centers.

Tension melts. Simple, fearless movement displaces it. Over and over.

Very nice!


Effortlessness (patience, care)

December 4th, 2011 · No Comments

Turning toward is effortless.
Connection is effortless.
Center is effortless.
Gravity and the experience of gravity (compression) is effortless.
Transformation is effortless.
The present moment is effortless.
Precision and poise are effortless.

Effort (no smile, held breath) is the futile attempt to push against or move away from these facts. Effort is a sign of … Is an opportunity to

Turn toward, care for, envelope, experience my history of avoidance, effortlessly.


Smile, Respecting Self

December 3rd, 2011 · No Comments

Grounded, breathing, with my history, in no hurry, with no judgement

Extend, reach out, in this moment, with my own history generating compassion and wisdom, to what is happening

With a smile

Move from center


Respecting self, my history, and others

Thou and Thou and Thou


My Care

December 3rd, 2011 · No Comments

Connection with self and others

Acceptance of self and others

Turing toward disconnection and its childhood, with kindness

Turing toward rejection and its childhood, with kindness