Marc's Reflection on Aikido & True Play

Entries from January 2012

Sensed Awareness

January 25th, 2012 · No Comments

Out of control

Into balance

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Noticing

January 25th, 2012 · No Comments

Openness (permeability, freedom)

AND

(my barriers to solidarity)

The Fences to deal with:

Not wanting to be judged

Not wanting to be controlled

Not wanting to be overwhelmed

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Time

January 25th, 2012 · No Comments

Safely and autonomously.

A continuous present.

Tacit sensations–gravity, center, connection, effortlessness, precision, and flow.

Not imagining a life frame-by-frame.

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Notes on Freedom and Solidarity

January 25th, 2012 · No Comments

FREEDOM

Autonomy!
Awareness of compression!
Openness!
Feeling, sensing fences and what is behind their construction.

SOLIDARITY

In between
Touch

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Committment to a special Awareness

January 25th, 2012 · No Comments

Moving, grounded, balanced, breathing autonomy (x 2).

Big care (x 2).

Connection (x 2) in between and

Conversation with.

Aware of centered care AND defensive routeines.

With full awareness, turning toward the defense from within the centering autonomous being I am.

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Smiling and Laughing

January 22nd, 2012 · No Comments

If not smiling and laughing

then what

is going on?

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Care as Identity

January 17th, 2012 · No Comments

Our multiple identities are our embodied care stories and the matching organization that attempts to protect us or that connects us. It is our centered, embodied, sensed care from which our emotions, ideas and actions arise and show up in the world.
With practice we can become familiar with the felt care and then we have real choice.

Until we can bring our care to our center, feel it, relax into it, until we can do this we will be moving from our head, from ideas, from analysis. Moving from our head, will always be late, off center, awkward and visibly inauthentic. More importantly, when can feel our deepest care at our core, at our center, then our physical movement, our emotions and our narratives will all flow authentically.

Of course feeling our care in this way is not available when we are stressed. But once we decrease our stress sufficiently, then we can begin to play with this sensibility. Trying to “do” aikido from our heads is not possible. Aikido is not technique. Aikido happens when we can move from our deepest care.

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Not a Chicken and Egg issue

January 8th, 2012 · No Comments

Fear and Openness?

Openness must come first

because being closed causes real danger which causes fear which…

So commit to openness so there is more flow, more organizations, more capacity and more capability to move with what comes up.

Openness removes the need for much fear.

An act of insight and will (re)creates the chicken or the egg and then joy returns.

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Committment

January 8th, 2012 · No Comments

To attention

as the goal

for transformation:

Is my body signalling fear?

What does it feel like? Really–where, size, texture, color, temperature, associated images or stories?

Am I open to this? Can I turn toward it?

What does that open turning toward feel like? What happens (how do the sensations change) when I am open and touching them with maximal curiosity and porosity?

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Fear

January 8th, 2012 · No Comments

The signal that you are not organized for what is at hand.

A good thing.

A choice: reorganize or run.

Usually reorganize!

Become porous–open, sensing, aware, extended, adaptable, flexible

Joyous–surprised, smiling, playful, learning for learning’s sake, in the flow of things (not outside looking in, analyzing progress toward some goal other than pure joy).

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Porous

January 8th, 2012 · No Comments

Opening

Turning toward

Curiosity

Connection

Touch

Rest

Parasympathetic (literally vagus nerve, heart rate variability)

Digesting

Healing

Growing

Effortless

Safe enough

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Turning Toward Touching

January 8th, 2012 · No Comments

There are always two choices in each moment

Touch and connect

or

Fight – Separate

The skills are to be aware of the situational differences,

to make the appropriate choice,

to practice touching-connecting-blending when the situation is safe.

 

 

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