Marc's Reflection on Aikido & True Play


December 19th, 2013 · No Comments



This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.


A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.


Welcome and entertain them all!…

Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.


The dark thought, the shame, the malice.

Meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.


Be grateful for whatever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.


— Rumi



December 16th, 2013 · No Comments

Disintegration of self occurs

when an aspect is set apart


Everything, every move, every relationship

is affected

when assuming a punishing stance to self



whole experienced,




Four years in summary

November 23rd, 2013 · No Comments

Body moves: micro-balance near the center of the center (simple flowing connection with the earth)

Connection (the illusion of separateness dissolves)


Heart moves: listen tenderly and move no faster than your tender heart (no self-violence)

Compassion and joy (the heart opens)


Mind moves: turn toward (open, accept, beginner’s mind)

Transformation (the mind changes)


Open Mind

November 28th, 2012 · No Comments

Undefended mind

Undefended emotions

Fully sensating body



October 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Turn toward stuckness
Absorb the sensation
Become familiar
Hold that sensation in my arms gently
Care for it
Feel my connection with the earth
Holding this baby gently in my arms, in my heart
Wish it no harm
Find gratitude for stuckness
Now hold hands with your friend stuckness
Now walk together
Now breath together
Now move together, brothers, center and center


Over reaction

February 25th, 2011 · No Comments

Over reaction.
Fearing X I exhibit -X.

There is another way:
Present with what is happening
Including fearing X
And simply being present with what is unfolding
Not defending
Not correcting nor over correcting in order
To be in the RIGHT place.
All of this unnecessary effort puts one off balance
Out of touch

The practice is:
Accepting connection
as a practice of neutral observation.


Presence for Solutions

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

“Problem solving”

Acceptance, Openness, Curiosity, Playfulness

Violence against
Conversations with


I-I of Acceptance

February 8th, 2011 · No Comments

The reality of the I-I.

Acceptance of others

Acceptance of self

Inextricably tied.


Just faces of the same way of being.

Alienation is simply alienation.

In the end, I cannot really treat others and self differently.

So accept and connect,




January 29th, 2011 · No Comments

Accept one’s self

Accept others through extension to sameness

Embrace the sacred earth, air, body–move as one

Move with extension directly into purpose and care

With another’s purpose and care



Training, practice, awareness

January 9th, 2011 · No Comments

awareness, breathing,
awareness, tensions,
awareness, breathing,
awareness, acceptance,
awareness, breathing,
awareness, relaxation,
awareness, breathing,
awareness, supple spine,
awareness, breathing,
awareness, extension,
awareness, breathing, connection, breathing, flow;
again and again a hundred times a day.

Awareness is presence, the rest is practice.

Breathing is core to awareness, acceptance and practice.


Move through the origin of fear

January 9th, 2011 · No Comments

Find the small fearful "self" and come out the back side into the whole, including, not excluding, the small fearful nodule which is then experienced NOT TO BE SELF but an impostor of sorts–a dark magician.

Acceptance of the small nodule of fear, with gratitude that it is so small. Extend around it, back into the playful space with others.

Get as big as the moment, the situation, the environment, my reactions, your reactions, your care, my care, our care.

Accept all with gratitude, through center, through breath, through supple spine, through extension, in fact this is extension, this whole thing is extension, extending.

Play in this whole space in this moment.


Bad behavior?

January 8th, 2011 · No Comments

In a world of pushing, holding and withdrawing, what is the middle way? What is the practice of acceptance and blending?

If not pushing, if not holding, if not withdrawing, then what?

There must be a non-collision course, a subtle move out of harm’s way, and a continuing connection that is not pushing, holding, or withdrawing–that is flowing with the other’s energy and momentum. Experiencing the other as same, as connected oneness

To do this one must remain grounded, without fear and attachment. This comes from a larger space than heart and mind. It can only come from oneness, sameness, "compassion" which is not empathy, rather universality, wholeness, total lack of narrowness.


Kernel of fear

January 2nd, 2011 · No Comments

Fear has a way of puffing itself up.

This slight of hand is given it’s power when we loose track of the small, simple starting point. Some small past pain gains the upper hand when we wish to avoid a reoccurance in the future AND we loose track of the total felt sense of that initial psychic "injury"–often just a discomfort.

The untethered event becomes a fear which then commands life and death emotions and reactions, really disturbing our lives. Disconnecting us from life. Fear is disconnection. It lives in the horizontal, dispersed way of being.

A useful practice: Find the small original kernel, stay with it, reacquaint. Let it return to the size of an event. That is much better, almost laughable. Nearly enjoyable. Certainly a relief!



December 31st, 2010 · No Comments

A fundamental practice.

Awareness combined with staying/accepting (not pushing, not withdrawing) is the basis of being and learning and unfolding toward what is most attractive, most integrated.

I am becoming much more aware of the reactions and tensions in my body. This awareness allows me to return to my practice of breathing, extending, and supple spine.


Staying with the unflowing practice

December 27th, 2010 · No Comments

Trying to change, well it just makes things…

Accepting lovingly the felt experience of an awkward and unfulfilling practice, emotion, habit, reaction…

This is the only way. Pushing or pulling on some "unwanted" aspect of oneself gives more life to that.

Accepting the whole of the unfolding, horizontal practice, its source, its physical manifestation, its felt sense, AND DOING NOTHING about it, just being with it, connecting with it is the way. Things integrate and loose power or gain power from this way of being.

In my case: relax my belly in place of tensely holding it in and therefore holding my chest out–my current practices of unneeded tenseness. Oh, and allow my knees to bend, therefore allowing my waist to stay flexible rather than flexed. An unintended and unflowing consequences of tenseness.


“Staying with it”

December 12th, 2010 · No Comments


It is not an act of will or power over.

It is the simplest of things.

Breathing from below the diaphragm.

Noticing what is going on, with tension,  with my muscles, with what is being held or contained or avoided.

Noticing my physical relation to the floor (balance)

Noticing how I am connecting with whatever is going one around me.

That is it. Seems simple enough. It is. It seems to be the main or foundational practice of Aikido.

The marshal art techniques are based upon this.


Staying with

December 11th, 2010 · No Comments

Stay with whatever comes up.
From "vertical", an inclusive, connected, movable place of choice.
Stay with fear, from "vertical", while fear exposes itself and transforms, without effort.

Effort only serves to amplify or harden fear.