Marc's Reflection on Aikido & True Play

Muscles or Bones

May 24th, 2013 · No Comments

Fear/Control — strength, skeletal muscles, holding against, holding breath, rising up — horizontal

Trust/Flow — gravity, skeleton, sensation, compression, balance, resting into, moving with —¬†vertical

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Being With

March 6th, 2013 · No Comments

Vertical

Horizontal

Turn toward and rest into

From vertical turn toward and rest into the horizontal

Turing toward is the practice, the way of being.

Vertical is not the goal nor the practice.

Vertical is the ability to be with.

A little bit of vertical is a precondition to turning toward.

Restful curiosity, being with the object of curiosity is the practice

Being with is the same thing as love.

Turing toward and resting into is an act of tenderness,

an act of loving the ugliness or pain or confusion

for the sake of letting it integrate, letting it relax,

a kind of transformation that is not quite dissolving

certainly not defeating anything

more like

watching the awkwardness solving itself

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No Matter What (parasympathetic perspective)

November 14th, 2012 · No Comments

At once

From vertical (parasympathetic)

Always available,

I can sense my own horizontal (adrenergic) inclinations

And notice,

From vertical.

Things change.

 

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Spirit?

November 11th, 2012 · No Comments

Is it other than coherent, integration of body, mind, and emotion?

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The Sensation of Support

November 10th, 2012 · No Comments

Play with the difference

between Vertical and Horizontal.

One can become aware of the sensations of being supported

of being nourished in the moment (Vertical)

One can become aware of being depleted, or spending energy

to hold or withhold (Horizontal).

One can then learn to be aware of the difference

and experience this difference from the stance or state of being supported and nourished as part of the embodied,  physical and biological world.

Staying with, turning toward the difference, it transforms effortlessly.

This is what it feels like to learn from be supported.

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Perceptive Stance, Internal Observer–External Originator-Creator

February 24th, 2012 · No Comments

Where is my observer positioned?

1) Behind my eyes, inside my skin–near the sensory organs and interpreter.

2) From the source of each sensation (rather than from the sensory organs).

I am finding it very easy to shift from my habitual stance–behind my eyes, to the source stance. I can now feel the perceptive stance shift back and forth.

The effect is amazing. I feel the rain to be creating me–in some real way I am BEING rained. Not being rained upon but being created in the moment by the experience of raining. There is another feeling–relaxation, less holding away, less need for protection from the “outside”.

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The Quest

February 18th, 2012 · No Comments

?
,
.

?,. ?,. ?,.
again
and
again
and
again

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Human Flourishing: Positivity Ratio

October 21st, 2011 · No Comments

From https://www.positivityratio.com

My answers to these questions over time, determine whether I will flourish or languish. These are outcome measures of Sensei Bert Bennett’s “vertical” and “horizontal“. My practice is to turn toward each as I am experiencing it. Also I am designing my days to include experiences of awe, gratitude, play, closeness and serenity. Playfulness needs attention!

  1. What is the most amused, fun-loving, or silly you felt?
  2. What is the most angry, irritated, or annoyed you felt?
  3. What is the most ashamed, humiliated, or disgraced you felt?
  4. What is the most awe, wonder, or amazement you felt?
  5. What is the most contemptuous, scornful, or disdainful you felt?
  6. What is the most disgust, distaste, or revulsion you felt?
  7. What is the most embarrassed, self-conscious, or blushing you felt?
  8. What is the most grateful, appreciative, or thankful you felt?
  9. What is the most guilty, repentant, or blameworthy you felt?
  10. What is the most hate, distrust, or suspicion you felt?
  11. What is the most hopeful, optimistic, or encouraged you felt?
  12. What is the most inspired, uplifted, or elevated you felt?
  13. What is the most interested, alert, or curious you felt?
  14. What is the most joyful, glad, or happy you felt?
  15. What is the most love, closeness, or trust you felt?
  16. What is the most proud, confident, or self-assured you felt?
  17. What is the most sad, downhearted, or unhappy you felt?
  18. What is the most scared, fearful, or afraid you felt?
  19. What is the most serene, content, or peaceful you felt?
  20. What is the most stressed, nervous, or overwhelmed you felt?
  1. angry
  2. humiliated
  3. contemptuous
  4. disgust
  5. embarrassed
  6. guilty
  7. distrust
  8. unhappy
  9. fearful
  10. stressed
  11. awe
  12. amused
  13. grateful
  14. hopeful
  15. inspired
  16. interested
  17. joyful
  18. closeness
  19. proud
  20. serene

I will turn toward the underlined emotions.

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Noticing Horizontal

September 15th, 2011 · No Comments

HOW OFTEN DO I ATTEMPT TO FEEL SAFE
BY ABANDONING MYSELF
BY ALIGNING WITH OTHERS
IN ORDER TO PLEASE, FOLLOW OR RESIST;

RATHER THAN STANDING ON MY OWN FEET
AND MOVING WITH THE OTHER PERSON(S)?

WHAT ARE THE CLUES
THAT LET ME KNOW
THIS HORIZONTAL RELATING IS HAPPENING?

The first step is to begin to notice how it feels in my body to abandon vertical.

Feel how I look away from myself when I make a horizontal move.

One can feel / sense the risk, the dependence, the off balance, the instability of the relationship in the moment.

Horizontal is Buber’s I–It. Vertical is I–Thou or I–I.

Whenever the other is felt to be more or less than I am–that is a clue.

When they are felt to be less, that is Buber’s I-It.

When I am felt to be less, I am internalizing Buber’s instrumental approach with “myself”.

Kind of an It-It, where no one is being respected, where there is no self respect, only violence.

Whenever I become anxious in the presence of another–that is a clue that I am going horizontal.

Whenever there is judging involved, that is a clue that I have abandoned vertical for horizontal.

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Turn

June 25th, 2011 · No Comments

No incline
–leaning is horizontal & is dragging the past violently across the only moment

Turn, arc, spiral around center
–vertical and present in the only moment, precisely

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Does gravity need my help?

May 20th, 2011 · No Comments

What is supporting me?

What am I holding?
up
onto
in
back
away
against

Can I trust being supported?
each moment

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Non-linear effect

April 24th, 2011 · No Comments

Of

Extension
and
Connection

So

Practice the basics
Compression, Sinking, Balance, Breath, Supple Spine, Extension, Connection

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Aikido

February 26th, 2011 · No Comments

Extension

Vertical

Big

Clear

With

———

From simplicity and safety

Toward connection

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Extend and Connect, from the ground, up and out

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

That is True Play

Based on a Vertical orientation

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Commit my Allegiance to the PRACTICE of Fearless Play

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Replace the HORIZONTAL
–time and energy devoted looking toward fear, self protection-destruction

with

Intention and attention to VERTICAL
–gravity, balance, breathing, and supple spine

I am literally being consumed by my ATTENTION to the Horizontal.
I NOW COMMIT to changing my allegiance (what I actually do with my time) from my history and fears to the simple PRACTICE of Vertical.

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Just

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

Feel the ground

Balance

Breath

Supple spine

Nothing else is necessary

The rest will take care of itself without effort or violence

Thoughts will flow

Resolutions and dissolution will occur

That’s what happens

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3D and Timeless

February 19th, 2011 · No Comments

The Horizontal relationship to fear is
2D,
time constrained (worried about the future, based on accumulated fears from the past) and
of limited choice

The Vertical relationship to True Play is
3D,
timeless (in the present moment–the only time that exists) and
choice full

(Marc, you can turn your hips, bend your knees, fall, roll–really. Practice)

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Vertical & horizontal

January 16th, 2011 · No Comments

Vertical–present with, connected, timeless, unfolding

Horizontal–anticipating through fear and worry (history), with tension, control, avoidance

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Vertical

December 31st, 2010 · No Comments

Bert Bennett has an embodied way of being he refers to as vertical (as distinct from horizontal).

The more I explore this, the more wisdom I discover.

Embodied connection with gravity (and environs–grounding, extension, flow), feeling (in the chest, empathy, fear, care,…), and cognition (thinking, language, narrative, stories believed-lived-told). These three anatomically stacked ways of being in the world are at their best when all in play and given primacy from the ground up.

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A choice, not a reactive continuum

December 12th, 2010 · No Comments

Playfulness vs. apprehension; joy vs. fear–I now see that these are binary choices. The choice is to practice one or the other. The intensity of our reaction or experience can be placed on a continuum. The practice we embody in this moment is either/or.

How wonderful.

Joy or fear is a personal choice of practice, not a passive reaction to the vageries of the world.

The practices are as different as vertical and horizontal.

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Staying with

December 11th, 2010 · No Comments

Stay with whatever comes up.
From "vertical", an inclusive, connected, movable place of choice.
Stay with fear, from "vertical", while fear exposes itself and transforms, without effort.

Effort only serves to amplify or harden fear.

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